Monday, August 31, 2009

The night before Gotcha Day

I can't really describe my feelings tonight. It's not the excitement of the night before my wedding. It's not like the night before the first day of school. Maybe not even quite like the night before Christmas...but maybe like the night before a big vacation or something.

In any case, it's a night of anticipation, of excitement, of anxiousness. Because tomorrow morning we take our family in our Sunday best to stand before a judge and pledge our lifelong devotion to Colton Thomas Alan Anderson and make official what we've believed and lived for almost a year now.

I can't wait. I am anxious and excited to get there, to stand up there. I'm worried I'll cry, I'm worried I won't cry. I'm worried Colt will be sleepy and fussy but I know the judge understands. I'm overwhelmed that almost every member of our family will be in the seats behind us, supporting us and loving Colt and quietly pledging their lifelong devotion to him as well. I'm thankful our wonderful attorney will be there to walk us through it.

What a culmination this will be. I never doubted this day would come, but I'm still ready for it to be here! I DO feel like a kid before Christmas morning. Laying out clothes, packing bags, making plans, charging camera batteries, ready to wake up and start the next chapter in our life where we're legally and officially a forever family.

I hope N is celebrating with us, not hurting at this final development. I know deep down she is happy that it is happening, she is proud of herself and Colt and of us and glad to see her family come together in this way. I'll be glad to send her pictures so she can see...we never backed down, we never wanted out, we will remain true to our commitment to her forever.

So, anyway, I guess I better get some sleep. To some it may seem cheesy, it's just a formality. But we do know we have an understanding judge who wants us to take pictures because he believes this is a momentous occasion. He wants us to celebrate, he wants our family there to be a part of it. This is closing a chapter on Colt's birth story and opening the chapter on his life story.

Colt is our testimony to love. So testifying tomorrow should be an outpouring of emotion for us. I can't wait.

Tune in soon for pics and a recap of the ceremony as well as our Gotcha Day party that night. Tomorrow is family and friends day and it's all about Colt...the most special day I can imagine!

13 comments:

♥April♥ said...

I just happen to stumble upon your blog tonight and I wanted to say Congrats and tell you what an inspiration your blog just was to me. We also just adopted a baby we named Colton with the birth mother being called “N” on my blog, so your blog has truly touched me and given me a glimpse in what the future could hold for us. Congrats once again I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow !!!!! Thank you so much for shareing your story with me.

Mountain Girl said...

Awww, that made me cry! Congrats on Colt's Gotcha Day! He is a blessed little guy to have so many who love him!

RB said...

Congrats on Colt's Gotcha Day! I can't wait to see those pictures :)

Kara Scharrer said...

I'm so excited for you guys! I will be thinking about you tomorrow. I know it will be a wonderful, joyous occasion. Can't wait to see pictures!

Sammy said...

I am so excited for you! Just thinking about our forever day gives me butterflies, I CANNOT wait for that day to arrive. I pray that tomorrow is everything you have dreamed of- Congrats!!!!

Leah said...

SO exciting! I can't wait to see pictures of this important day.
YAY! :-D

KLTTX said...

Enjoy your day! I know what a relief it is to know that he will legally and forever be your son even though he's been your son in your heart forever.

hope548 said...

It is truly an amazing day and an amazing feeling to finally have everything tied up and official. Congratulations and enjoy!!

uncomplicateme said...

Happy he's-yours-forever day! Can't wait to hear the details and I'll be thinking of you. *hugs*

Melba said...

Good luck today, I can't wait to see pictures of your special day with that darling boy!!

Hugs,

Melba

Chara said...

You made me cry. Congratulations.

Chara said...

You made me cry. Congratulations.

Chara said...

You made me cry. Congratulations.